Farewell...

Yesterday night, I received a call from my best friend, mx.. It’s a call that I always hesitant to receive. A new delivered by my friend that no miracle happens on her… I glance through all my msn contacts especially her, a message / shout out from her: “Let me see the rainbow, tell me there is hope…” or “People propose, heaven dispose...” From these 2 sentences, I could feel that she is in a state of being deserted by the life of cruelty. I agree that everyone somehow will go through different life experience.. However, to her this kind of life experience tends to be too rigid for her and her family to go through. Though this life experience is hard for her, she fought really well in these 2 years.

In my eye of her, she is strong, cheerful, intelligent, hardworking and smart girl.. Although many of us could not bear to let her go, parting can also be a relieve for everyone of us especially to her and her family..Deep in my heart, I believe that she is going to somewhere there are no more sufferings but happiness in another world. Dear Xy, you are always in my mind! Farewell...

1 more day to go...

Time really flies, one more day to go is Chinese New Year eve, the last zodiac is to be sent back and welcome the next coming zodiac, Rat. Ever since, my dearest beloved mum went to a place where there is no more suffering, I can feel a slight change in me. I tend to look at life differently. In the past, before I know what exactly a life is, I treated it for granted. I never take life seriously… Before my mum’s health was getting “Better”, i was a very dependent girl. I tend to rely on my mum so much as she really took good care of us - My elder brother, my younger sister and I. Though my mum was strict on us, we loved and respect her no matter what. She always here for us especially me.. I like to talk to her a lot of things regarding my school, school work, my current job and even my friends..She was just my dearest friend who was a good listener and good adviser too. Sometime, I like to stay at home during my school holiday or on leave as I know there is always someone to accompany me at home who is my dearest MUM. Though she left us for 2 years, I could still remember vividly how she looked, from a healthy cheerful lady to a boney weak lady, and the very night she left us.. Whenever, I talked about her, my heart sink and tears just come if I continue to think about her. Why I bring it out again as we just performed 3 years ritual few days ago..She left us 5 days before the Chinese New Year in the year of Dog.

What has change in me, I look at life differently. Anything hinders me or I plan for soo long or I have no courage to do. I will just go for it. Whenever, anyone ask me out or any favour from me, I will help if I can as life is short and unpredictable. Within these 2 years, I lost a mum, a grandpa, a grandma and a colleague..

Hopefully the starting of the New Year 2008, RAT, everyone is blessed with good health, life and happiness. Especially my dear friend, I hope that miracles can fall on her. If god really exists, please give her another chance and continue to let her see the beauty of this world.

Happy Chinese New Year. =)