31st Dec 08 -- The last day of year 2008

Soon.. A few more hours to go then strike to 12am and I have to say "GoodBye" to year 2008, and welcome the year 2009. "This year seem to be short and fast as compared with the previous year.~".. Every year, i always hear the same from everyone.. Maybe.. Perhaps thing happen too fast till everyone cannot even expected..

Is this year 2008 a great year? I believe everyone will agree with me that this year is not easy.. From the start of the year, everyone hopes for the great and prosperous year.. However, things just not going as what we hope for.

Though this year may not be a great year for me, it is still considered an acceptable year. My family and friends are still healthy and not being too affected by the surroundings except my friend who left us in Feb during the 15 days lunar month. However, I will still remember her who was the strong girl and never say "GIVE UP". This is the strong determination that I should learn from her...

Still there are many things happened in this year 2008. I will still move forward positive and pursue my goals/dreams.

HaPpY nEw YeAr 2009!

My New Year resolutions - NEW JOB (Stable & Bright Prospect)

After CHRISTMAS day.

Yes.. Back to work after a holiday pass.. Christmas!!!.. A day that i like the most among all festival seasons.. I should say i am a little reluctant to come back to work.. In fact, many of my colleagues took leave for today.. As it is supposed to be a long weekend... Woo.. if i can take too that would soo great.. Anyway it is ok as i took a day leave on next week Monday too. Heheh.. How is my christmas holiday.. Not really good.. i suppose it is not good at all as compared with last year and previous year.. the only difference i have my dear with me.. But he disappointed me on that very day.. I sad...

Ok.. Let's stop to talk about the sad stuff.. I would like to share with you guys about the preparation for my colleagues.. Ha.. i baked cookies for my colleagues.. heheh.. Too pity is tat the overall result consider half-failure.. LOL ..Hhaha..

However, i am glad that they appreciate the cookies as the heart i put in to bake all these cookies.. Moreover, i thank for their appreciations too.. Ya.. futhermore, i would like to thank to my dearest Sister, she helped me the whole night to bake cookies till nearly daybreak.. Plus my Dear who help me till midnight then headed to his home.. Thanks soo much.. I am really appreciate you guys's help.. Another BIG THANKS.

My X'mas presents:

HO HO HO.. Merry CHRISTMAS!!! (Late Greetings)

失望!

Disappointed!

I am really disappointed in someone. Giving or contributing soo much.. Never really ask for anyting.. But the moment i wan to know further and this is the answer i received.

Sometime, i wonder when you put in so much effort but it may not turn out what you reap for.

However, i will still do my part to help as much as i can. Becoz i know that tis is my part. Although many people feel that i am foolish enough to give so much when someone does not really appreciate your help... Still this is me, i will not bear not to help when i can help...

Or i should not use this word "HELP".. Whatever.. "HELP" sounds too nice or not nice.. I do not know either..

Sick again...

Fall sick again.. (After 3 weeks of good health)

Last Monday night, I went out together with Dear to meet his customers, then back home.. My whole body was aching. Soon after, I was shivering in cold.. Then after, I was down with high fever again.. My head was going to explore.. Sooooo pain.. a very torture night that I could not sleep at all. The whole night, Dear took care of me.. He put some ice on my forehead to cool me down and pat me to sleep.. However, i just could not sleep... I woke up numbers of time in the middle of night.

The next day, I waited for my Dear to bring me to see Doctor as I had difficulties to move around.. Just like a very old lady, sooo weak... Though I had medicine last night, the stubborn temperature (FEVER) still not subside...

Doctor checked my temperature -> 38.9 degree celcius.. She commented that it is a common cold name as term VIRAL FEVER.. And my temperature is still very high and I needed a good rest.. .. hhaha.. Then i add on.. Oooo yesterday i felt myself was burning hot.. so the temperature might go as high to 40 degree celcius!!!.. My dear laughed at me.. if really that the case, I was already an idiot.. hahah.. Lucky my temperature did not go as high as that.. I had a day MC for me to rest. Back to work the next day though Doctor gave me 2 days MC..

The 3rd day, I am still weak and in the mid of recovery.. =)

All virus stay away from me.. I want my good health back..

My Dad REMARRIED!!!

When I was just a small little girl, I like to read fairytale stories. I believe that everyone will know the story of Cinderella and Snow white & 7 Dwarfs. It contains a story about how their step mothers ill-treated them when dad got remarried…Hence, many people including me do not really like step-mother.. However, I have a step-mother that never in my life i will ever think of having one too.. =(

My mum had been taking care of me for 23 years.. I miss her.. I really miss her.. Though I miss her, I glad that she was away from all the sufferings. I will never forget how she looked, how she sacrificed her time, her patient and all about her.. I knew all along that she was guilt and sorry for me.. As she felt that as a mother, she did not bring the best for me. I used to complaint that why am i soo different from all girls. Why i need to suffer from all these stupid things.. However, all I want is to have someone to be my listener.. And she was always my good listener..Ok.. enough of missing her I know that whenever i talk about her, her story will never end.. Because she's always in my heart. Endless of words describing her, my mother.. Yes.. She was my great mother.. =)

O ya back to topic, 2 weeks ago. My dad remarried on 07 Sep 08 (八月初八). An auspicious day to marry.. His wedding hold at the RC, a small celebration.. Considered quite a number of guest at that day.. My sister and I were totally no idea what to do and how to help. All we had to do was to attend my dad's wedding.. Sound weird.. Really WEIRD.. Anyway. Both my sister and i have no objection..Its already been 2 years, we should not be soo selfish.. Dad is getting old.. He needs a company. Sooner or later, we will get marry and have family. At least there is someone to take care of him and we need not to worry about. I believe that Mum will understand too. However, most of them understand except my elder brother.. On that day, he was absence.. He was angry with my dad to get remarried.

I will not call her "Mother" but only "Aunty".. However, she treat us not bad.. She helps to do some household and always bring dinner for my sister or us....So she is not really that kind of stepmother that we used to think of. Ok i shall end here.. Busy doing other stuff.. =)

Convocation Day - 29 Aug 08

Finally the day had come, my convocation day on 29 Aug 08 and I took a day off after my Bangkok trip.. 2 years down the road, all my hard work had reaped, I am graduated with bachelor degree of Economics and Finance. I still remember before I registered for this course, Manchester school accepted me for another course – Bachelor degree of Business management. However, I gave it up though it’s a good school and good course plus not an easy course to get into. Reasons due to financial problem, a semester fee costs about $5k.. To be practical, how can I manage such expensive school fee for every semester. I need to support my family and myself. Definitely I do not have enough of $$$ to pay the school fee. My only mind set tell me that I would not want to get loan as I want to pay all the school fee all by own.. I saved up a year saving and I chose the same course as my best friend, Mx… Hee I had accompany too.. Luckily, both of us were able to enroll in. However, after the first semester, Mx decided to give it up due to busy working schedule and tight financial problem.. haiz.. $$$ to be blamed again.. Else she will be graduated the same day as me.

I only had 2 invitation tickets on that day. Sad to say my mum is not able to attend my convocation day. But I know somewhere up there she knows that I can completed the course and she will be very happy with it too.. Ooo my sister she was not able to attend as she had lesson on that day too.. So in the end, my dad attended my convocation day.. A few pictures were taken on that day..

Yes these also remind me to find a job that can give me stable financial income and the goal I can reach to.. =)

Trip to Bangkok

Just back from my Bangkok trip with dear.

We had been planning this trip for a few months after the Penang trip. Actually, we were choosing between Taiwan or Bangkok. After a few months of considering and discussing, we decided on Bangkok. A place where is more affordable and a shopping paradize for us plus we want to be oversea only a couple of days.

Again we need to discuss on flights, hotel and the dates. The most headache thing is the days to go to Bangkok. We can only apply leaves either in late August or early September. According to the available promotion flights, we can only choose to go in late August. Initially, we wanted to go in early September as we wanted to avoid travelling during the ghost festival month (7th lunar mth). A month that most chinese will choose not to go overseas. Both of us felt that it was alright as the most important thing is that both of us able to apply leave on that week.

Hotel: Baiyoke Boutique

Air flights: Jetstar Asia

Insurance: AIG

Finally the day had come, we set off to Bangkok. The night before departure day, I stayed overnight at dear's home. Perhaps due to excitement, i did not have enough sleep with only a few hours sleep. Then early in the morning, dear's parents brought us to airport. We reached there an hour before the departure time and we were almost late to check in. Luckily, we made it in time. The first time ever for me to take Jetstar Asia flight. The only comment i can give is that uncomfortable and limited space for every seat except for the front row.

After a couple of hours, we reached our final destination - Bangkok airport around 10plus (Singapore timing) . Then we straight to take a cab to our hotel. The journey to there took about 2 hours plus..The time took from airport to hotel supposed to be only 40 minutes but it end up to be unexpectedly long due to traffic jam and the partly reason was due to the RIOT at there hindered the whole traffic. The taxi fare supposed to be around 200 baht and jumped to 465 baht. Faint~... Anyway the only good thing is that the taxi meter at there jump alot slower than in here.. hahah.. Soo it still alright for both of us.

However, we reached around the time around 12pm (Singapore Timing) then we needed to wait for another 3 more hours before we could check in. So we left our luggages at there and we headed straight to our shopping mall. HAHHA!!!!..

As we walked, we bought the street food.. Wow so many stuff to see to buy and to eat. We never stopped eating the moment we reached.. hhehhe so happy. Then by around 3pm (Singapore Timing) we back to our hotel.

I was expecting nice and spaceous big room.. As i read the comments from the forum were good. When we opened the door, the only word flashed in my mind ----> SMALL.. Though the photo is the same as what we saw from the website but the size of the room is not up to my expectation.. Anyway, it is still considered cheap and not bad hotel. Likewise the toilet is not as good as i used to stay in..

The first 2 nights we went as planned (Itinerary)... The 2nd night we went to Lebua Hotel (First class hotel). We went there as dear's colleague said that the sky bar is a topless bar at 64 floor. We can see the whole Bangkok night scenary... The moment we stepped in, "WOWOW.. BEAUTIFUL" I just could not stop saying the word "WOW!" We ordered cocktails and admiring the beautiful bangkok night scenary.. Sooo beautiful.. Then we took photos too.. Oo ya.. At there, we also got to know a couple from Switerland.. They are sooo tall.. I was just like a dawf when they stood beside me.. They are friendly, chatty and easy going friends.. In overall, we had a good chat with them..

However, at that night, dear had a bad night. He did not have a good sleep as he was having diahrrea and vomitting throughout the whole night, followed by high fever. Immediately the next morning, it was my turn to be the same as him.. Soo sad.. What we planned to go to Chinatown on the 3rd day. It end up to be at there for less than a hour but both of us can't "TAHAN" and we back to hotel room to stay at there for the whole day to rest. I was soo sad.. I have alot of stuff not bought at there. T_T

The 4th day, the day that we were returning to Singapore. Both of us were just recovered from this food poisoning but we were soooo energetic.. Left only the last few hours for us to do the last minute shopping. Still i bought a few and so do my DEAR.. And still not enough money for us to spend tooo. Next time we should bring more $$$$$. hahah..

The only upset thing is that we wasted a day not to shop in Chinatown.. However, it is still a good trip for both of us.. Plus we felt lucky that we went there last week but not this week as it is not advisable to go there due to riot. According to the news reporting that the riots at there are getting worse.. Hopefully the singaporean at there are not affected by this riots.

Cheers. =)

An Uninvited Guest...

I still remembered late at night around 11 plus while I was watching TV show. A scream came out from the bedroom.. "Sis sis, quick come to the room!" I jumped up from my sofa. "What wrongs!~" She said: "A Big Big Big Spider!".. I said "How big can it be, are you bluffing??" .. My sis continued. "About 4-5 inch".. "Are you serious?" I asked again.. Abit terrified of how she described, then we head to our bedroom.. OOooo it really a big big spider and it just on top of the ceiling.. "O.. What should i do to get rid of tis spider"..

But first, let me describe how it looks like:
1. Black color
2. Hairy
3. Long legs (total 8 legs -> Of coz)
4. Small body
5. Size abt 4-5 inches (Including its build and legs)

When both of us in the room, that spider seem to sense us around. It ran or i should say it "crawl" very fast with its long 8 legs and back to our big wardrobe. Immediately, in my mind. Yes we have to call the Pest controller to help us get rid of this uninvited guest. We tried to call a few. The first expert said "Because it near to midnight, we normally charge quite high" .. "How high can it be??" I thought. "$200".. Blurz.. this stupid spider need around $200 just to get rid of it..

Then we tried another call. The second expert is much more friendly. He advised that there is no need to spend this unneccesary money on this stupid spider.. And he taught me the way to get rid of it.. But i sooo chicken out when i see the spider.

Finally, waited for so long, my dad was back.. Too bad my dad is also one of the "CoW_ _ _ _" sooo.. He suggested us to slp at his room tonight and he shall stay at auntie's hse overnight.. Wat a scary night.

The next day, the spider was gone.. However it back again around the same time.. This time still we slp at my dad's room.. Then nowhere see this stupid spider again.. Hopefully it is gone forever.. Please.. !

Lost its' photos .. i will post them when i found them..

What sooo big?~

Something.. Something that attracts all ladies' attention.. Something that all ladies want to have at least one.. Something that i can't even imagine or dare to have one.. Even i want to.. i still do not bear to have one.. Me myself understand that it is just Something.. Something hard.. Something bright..Something shiny.. Something that me myself deep in my heart wants to have it tooo... Yes i want it..Though to some GUYS tis maybe just nothing special, all i can say to them is Something nice and beautiful..

This Something i got it using my first bonus. A very small portion only can already make my heart pain.. As for my birthday gift, i got another Something from my dearest DEAR. However soon after i got another Something from my dearest DEAR again. That i do not even dare to imagine to get that BIG Something from HIM.

Thanks DEAR! I love it! Muack!~

This is the "SOMETHING" that i refer to:

In June 08 (My dear's new car)

New car and Old car. Dear had just scrapped off his old car - Toyota Corona (Black) not long ago. The old car that i used to drive. Hee, a car for me to practise on. I should say this car is my learning car or toy car. However, because of me, Dear had spent quite a sum to repair the damages I made on this old car. So what are the damages ?

These are the damages:
1st - Car rims
2nd - Exhaust Pipe
3rd - Car leather seat (Driver)

Heehe I soo guilt over the damages I made but dear never really angry about me. He just said that a lesson for me.. Hhehe I am too careless. Actually because of him, I tend to learn how to drive with confident and careful on the road. Thanks Dear.

As his old car brought him a lot of problem. So he decided to change to a new car, Nissan Latio (Pearl White). I should say it is a good car. Fuel consumption is low and everything is good too..

Nissan Latio

We decided to collect the car on 18 Jun 08 which is a good day being told by my dear's Mum. So I took a day leave to accompany my dear to collect the car together.

We woke up around 11 plus, then accompany my dear to run errands. Hee then I be the driver again but the last time of driving the old car - Toyota, Corona.

Before we started to go, the weather turned from bright blue sky to dark cloudy sky..Very soon, the rains had come.. OOoooo. I prayed to the Rainy God , "Please stop the rain when we collect the car" Along our way to run the errands, the rain still continue and the auspicious time to collect the car was running out. We need to the car before 6pm.

Around 4pm plus, the Rainy God finally hear my pray and stopped the rain. Then we headed to the car mechanism shop to sell away the brand new car rims which was only 2 months old. While waiting the technican to change the car rims, ooo the Rainy God shows his temper again. Another "Raining dogs and cats!"..Haiz.. what to do.. no choice.. =(

However, when everything was done and we were on our way to collect the new car. Ha again the Rainy God resumed to good temper, he stopped the rain.. Heheh soo happy. Thanks Rainy God .

My dear was happily collected his new car and take good care of his new car till now.

In May 08

Hmm..What had happened in May??? I have to recall first. Nothing really happened. Though nothing had happened, it does not mean no good. "No news, means good news!" That is what i always believe in.

The only good thing is that i received my bonus. Sad to say the bonus is not much. Haiz. another sad thing is that I am not promoted. =(

Perhaps my performance does not meet my boss's high expectation. However, it's alright. I am still looking for hope, a interesting/challenging/bright prospect job for me. Hopefully, i can find this kind of job soon (ASAP). I really do not want to wait anymore. I need to earn more money in order to meet all my commitments. My shoulder is getting heavier and heavier as time flows. Anyway Good Luck to me. I believe things can always be better if I'm continue to stay optimistic. I also believe that my beloved mum will act as our guardian angel to protect us away from all dangers. Mum! I miss you...!

My Braces removed 18 Apr 08

Yipeee! My braces removed on My Birthday.. I was sooo happy as I had been wearing this braces for almost 2 years. Though the overall effect may not be that perfect, still a lot better. All the pains or suffers come to an end. Heheh..

Let's see the before and after:

Yes.. That is HUMAN.. Nice story..

I get it from one of the blog, a nice story to share that talks about a MAN

俄國大文豪托爾斯泰寫了一本寓言故事集《呆子伊凡》，裏面有一個故事是這樣的：

有個老魔鬼看到人間的生活過得太幸福了，它說：「我們要去擾亂一下，要不然魔鬼就不存在了。」它先派了一個小魔鬼去擾亂一個農夫。因為它看到那農夫每天辛勤地工作，可是所得卻少得可憐，但他還是那麼快樂，非常知足。小魔鬼就開始想，要怎樣才能把農夫變壞呢？他就把農夫的田地變得很硬，讓農夫知難而退。那農夫敲半天，做得好辛苦，但他只是休息一下，還是繼續敲，沒有一點抱怨。小魔鬼看到計策失敗，只好摸摸鼻子回去了。

老魔鬼又派了第二個去。第二個小魔鬼想，既然讓他更加辛苦也沒有用，那就拿走他所擁有的東西吧！那小魔鬼就把他午餐的麵包跟水偷走，小魔鬼想農夫做得那麼辛苦，又累又餓，卻連麵包跟水都不見了，這下子他一定會暴跳如雷！農夫又渴又餓地到樹下休息，想不到麵包跟水都不見了！「不曉得是哪個可憐的人比我更需要那塊麵包跟水？如果這些東西就能讓他得溫飽的話,那就好了。」又失敗了，小魔鬼又棄甲而逃。

老魔鬼覺得奇怪，難道沒有任何辦法能使這農夫變壞嗎？這時，第三個小魔鬼出來了。它對老魔鬼講：「我有辦法，一定能把他變壞。」小魔鬼先去跟農夫做朋友，農夫很高興地和它作了朋友。因為魔鬼有預知的能力，它就告訴農夫，明年會有乾旱，教農夫把稻種在濕地上，農夫便照做。結果第二年別人沒有收成，只有農夫的收成滿坑滿谷，他就因此而富裕起來了。小魔鬼又每年都對農夫說當年適合種什麼，

三年下來，這農夫就變得非常富有。小魔鬼又教農夫把米拿去釀酒販賣，賺取更多的錢。慢慢地，農夫開始不工作了，靠著經濟販賣的方式，就能獲得大量金錢。

有一天，老魔鬼來了，小魔鬼就告訴老魔鬼說：「您看！我現在要展現我的成果。這農夫現在已經有豬的血液了。」只見農夫辦了個晚宴，所有富有的人都來參加；喝最好的酒，吃最精美的餐點，還有好多的僕人侍候。他們非常浪費地吃喝，衣裳零亂，醉得不省人事，開始變得像豬一樣癡肥愚蠢。「您還會看到他身上有著狼的血液。」小魔鬼又說。這時，一個僕人端著葡萄酒出來，不小心跌了一跤。農夫就開始罵他：「你做事這麼不小心！」「唉！主人，我們到現在都沒有吃飯，餓得渾身無力。」「事情沒有做完，你們怎麼可以吃飯！」老魔鬼見了，高興地對小魔鬼說：「唉！你太了不起！你是怎麼辦到的？」小魔鬼說：「我只不過是讓他擁有比他需要的更多而已，這樣就可以引發他人性中的貪婪。」

What had happened in April 08...

1st cake - My colleagues

Flashed back ->>> what had actually happened in April 08,... Ha guess what, i born in the month of April soo its My Birthday!!!. This year, i made 2 wishes as 1st cake was bought by colleagues from my favourite cake shop - Cedele . The only pity is that my favourite cake - tiramisu strawberry cake sold out on that day. However, its alright.. Thoughts that count :)

Taste great too though not my favourite, still a nice cake. PS: "Thanks for the cake, i like it very much"

Ooo as for the 2nd cake, is a big big burger.. Hhaha i should name it as funny cake.. Initially, my dear and i went to select my birthday cake. In cake shop, there are many variety of beautiful cakes, then my dear decided to have this super big burger cake. Interesting.. The first time ever i had a funny cake.. A mini birthday party held at my dear house. We invited only my relatives . Hehe as i dun wan to have big crowds during my big day. Actually, i thought of celebrating my birthday with my dear only but he said invite my relatives since they like gathering sooo i follow his idea. Frankly speaking not a bad idea, it's a way to bring our family more closer but its tiring day..

Ya.. I almost nearly forgot to thank someone -> My dear as well as my dear's mum. She had helped me alot during this mini birthday party.

As for the gift, i received a few from my god-mum and a diamond ring from my dear. Shock for me, as my dear bought me a diamond ring and i have never ever expected that too.. Hahah.. I can see a big hole from his wallet.. =P Anyways thanks my dear. I love it.. "Muack"

Thats all.. Cont'd soon what had actually happened during the month in May 08.. =)

Finally

Finally, I change my blog skin. I did some changes from the initial blog skin. I got the blog skin from the blogskin.com. I was soo amazed by every blog skin, leads me to have the urge to create of my own blog skin.. Ha perhaps, my creative brain cells have died or asleep for a sooo long time, i can only amend abit by using one of the blog skin that describes ME. Hence i picked this blog skin. However, i believe i will change to another blog skin which is created by me. Heheh.

Ya I have been a long period time not updating my blog.. About a 3-4 mths, sooo fast time really flies. Many things happened during the last 4 mths.. Yawn~~.. Its already very late, i have to work tomorrow.. Will continue what's going on during the last 4 mths.. Update sooon. Nitez! =)

In Penang during Mid Mar 08

Oh back to work again. Away from work since last week 7 mar 08. The initial plan is to go to Penang with my dear’s parents, however due to last minute changes, turn out to be only we 2 are going. Anyway the main purpose of going there is to stay away from stress and work.. Though Penang is not my desired place to go to, I am still willing to go there to explore. Because this is the first overseas trip together with my dear. When we reached there, Penang is not what I imagined. As I thought Penang is a small kampong village. Ha perhaps I am a country pumpkin. Actually Penang is improving tremendously and its progress can be compared with KL instead.. But still this place is still considered a relax pace for my dear and I to travel around.We stayed in his auntie’s house and borrowed a car from his uncle. With the car, it saved us a lot of trouble to take public transport. Headed to our first destination is Gerney Plaza which is one of the famous shopping centre in Penang. We had our hair cut there too. Later at nite, I get to know his cousin, Darren. He brought us around - largest Shopping Mall – Queensway and pubs. The pubs there are different from Singapore. Examples the crowds, liquor and songs. Anyway clubbing at there is cheap as there is no entry fee required. My dear and I had a nice chat with his cousin. We spend the whole night there till late 3am plus when the pub closed. Ha my first thrill is that I drove them home in Penang. Both guys were so worried when I was driving as I am not experience as them.. Sooo funny.. End up they were more alert than me.. =PThere are many temples in Penang too. We went to quite a number of temples and one of them is up to the hill. Other than that, my dear brought me to try the local delicacy and my favourite is炒馃条. The taste is totally different from Singapore.Though I still have a lot of place never been to in Penang, it is still considered a nice enjoyable trip. =)

Farewell...

Yesterday night, I received a call from my best friend, mx.. It’s a call that I always hesitant to receive. A new delivered by my friend that no miracle happens on her… I glance through all my msn contacts especially her, a message / shout out from her: “Let me see the rainbow, tell me there is hope…” or “People propose, heaven dispose...” From these 2 sentences, I could feel that she is in a state of being deserted by the life of cruelty. I agree that everyone somehow will go through different life experience.. However, to her this kind of life experience tends to be too rigid for her and her family to go through. Though this life experience is hard for her, she fought really well in these 2 years.

In my eye of her, she is strong, cheerful, intelligent, hardworking and smart girl.. Although many of us could not bear to let her go, parting can also be a relieve for everyone of us especially to her and her family..Deep in my heart, I believe that she is going to somewhere there are no more sufferings but happiness in another world. Dear Xy, you are always in my mind! Farewell...

1 more day to go...

Time really flies, one more day to go is Chinese New Year eve, the last zodiac is to be sent back and welcome the next coming zodiac, Rat. Ever since, my dearest beloved mum went to a place where there is no more suffering, I can feel a slight change in me. I tend to look at life differently. In the past, before I know what exactly a life is, I treated it for granted. I never take life seriously… Before my mum’s health was getting “Better”, i was a very dependent girl. I tend to rely on my mum so much as she really took good care of us - My elder brother, my younger sister and I. Though my mum was strict on us, we loved and respect her no matter what. She always here for us especially me.. I like to talk to her a lot of things regarding my school, school work, my current job and even my friends..She was just my dearest friend who was a good listener and good adviser too. Sometime, I like to stay at home during my school holiday or on leave as I know there is always someone to accompany me at home who is my dearest MUM. Though she left us for 2 years, I could still remember vividly how she looked, from a healthy cheerful lady to a boney weak lady, and the very night she left us.. Whenever, I talked about her, my heart sink and tears just come if I continue to think about her. Why I bring it out again as we just performed 3 years ritual few days ago..She left us 5 days before the Chinese New Year in the year of Dog.

What has change in me, I look at life differently. Anything hinders me or I plan for soo long or I have no courage to do. I will just go for it. Whenever, anyone ask me out or any favour from me, I will help if I can as life is short and unpredictable. Within these 2 years, I lost a mum, a grandpa, a grandma and a colleague..

Hopefully the starting of the New Year 2008, RAT, everyone is blessed with good health, life and happiness. Especially my dear friend, I hope that miracles can fall on her. If god really exists, please give her another chance and continue to let her see the beauty of this world.

Happy Chinese New Year. =)

I won 6th Prize in Lucky Draw (DND on 25 Jan 08)

Though it’s happened a few days back, I still feel happy on that night occasion DND. My company was holding an annual DND in year 2008 at Shangri-La Hotel and our department was invited too.

On that particular day, almost everyone including me was anxious of tonight DND. Perhaps due to our time management poor, we were late for the DND. And we had to sneak into the function room when EVP was on speech presentation.

The first dish was the traditional Chinese new year favourite, Lao Yu Sheng.. as follow is Shark Fin and continue.. when the next dishes going to be served, the host was announcing the lucky ones of the Lucky Draw. At the same time, I was taking photos of my colleagues. When he announced the 7th prize, I hope my numbers was to be called as that prize was what I want – DVD recorder which is my home lacked of. Too bad, my number was not called. However, soon after the 7th prize, when the host said “1130”. I was shocked.. I could not believe that my numbers was called. Immediately, I opened my invitation card and checked.. OOOOooo I won the 6th prize. I raised my hand up and walked towards the stage in the fast pace.. When I was walking, I could feel that my heart beat was fast and my face was blushing..I walked up the stage and shaked hand with EVP, bad habit again I licked out my tongue while taking photo with him .. Opps. =P

When I walked back to my seat, I called my dear about this good new at once.. I want to share with him my happiness.. Then I sms my friends and my dear sister too.. Ha everyone was happy for me too as I won a SONY camera T200..

Very fast the DND ended, my dear sent me home and I continue to share this good news with my sister. She was soo excited about it too.. End up we chatted till 3am plus then went to bed..

A new change of my life ever since Christmas night.

Ever since the Christmas eve, I have been a long time no updating my blog. Last year 2007, I got to know him on the Christmas eve night or to be exact I met him when the time striked to 12 am, the first night of Christmas. Actually that night, I had good impression of him. He’s the only one among the group who took his initiative to entertain Weiling and I. Hence, I had good impression of him that night. However, I did not manage to say “GOOD BYE” to him as I promise my dad not to reach home too late.

The very next day, he had my mobile number through my friends, Weiling and Derek. Initially, I rejected to meet him for movie as i was already out with my friends. However, after sooo long nagging (persuading) from Derek, then I decided to go for this sudden date with him including that nagging friend, Derek =P. He came and fetched me at my house block.. To my surprise, he drove a car that I could not imagine.. At first, I was taken aback because at his age was not quite possible for him to own this car. On our way there, we had some conversation then I got to know that this car is from his dad but not his. I glad that he was honest to me.

Soon after, we meet Derek and watched “National Treasure II”. After the movie, we went for supper. I had no idea that I would sms him that I was not feeling well on the next early morning.. Again, another surprise from him, he came to look for me with a bottle of canberry and essence of chicken. I was moved by his action. And hence i agreed to meet him out for dinner. That day, I also get to know that he was having a slight cold, so I went to buy a herbal tea for him in order to thank for his concern to me. However, I was shy to give him the herbal tea when I saw him. Luckily I did not give him that as his body condition does not allow him to drink such “LIANG” herbal tea.

From that night onwards, we sms and chit chat over the phone for a couple of days. On 27 Dec 07, he asked me to be his gf. I was shocked as everything just comes so fast. We been sms the whole night and I did not sleep that night too. In my heart, I wanted to say YES but advices from my friend that things seem to be soo fast and hence I tend to be hold back.

On 28 Dec 07, I met him again after my best friend’s wedding dinner. At the dinner, I was glad that my best friend moves to the next stage of the life and I am happy for her too.. Deep in my heart, I also wait for my BIG Day to come.. =)
He fetched me after the dinner and we had short chit chat. And he’s still waiting for my reply… In the end, I followed my heart den from that night onwards, I am his gf.

Both of us felt that though we only known each other for less than a month, but to us we seem to know each other for long. We are from a distant relationship till to close relationship. In between of the weeks, we had a few times of quarrel.. 1 time was in a verge of ending. Perhaps, we are from two different world and hence this lead to some misunderstandings between us. I could feel that he was disappointed in me and wish to give up. I was so dishearten at that time too.. As I knew that it was all my fault to make him feel that way.. At that point of time, I really could not bear to give it up and I know that my feeling towards him is real. I really want to change myself to a better person to be with him. I really glad that he also did not bear to give it up too, and willing to forgive me. "Thanks Dear to give this relationship another chance, deep in my heart, I give you my word that I shall not hold back again towards your care and concern and I shall learn to give and take too."

Right now, I can assure myself that my heart only open just for him but no other person in this relationship. Sincerely, I wished that this relationship work out and we will be together happily ever after. =)